What Life?: July 2007

What Life?

- Shoving life's stupidities down my throat and trying to love it - and then some -

Monday, July 30, 2007

=3

Blah, blah, blah, I can't think of something witty HAHAHA!!!

Love and Snow (1st draft)

The in between
The silence
The doors freeze shut
The tip of tongues
Blue lips, the snow
Birds grounded from flight
Standstill,
And the watch
Ticks, ticks, ticks
Slowly etching time
In the snow
In the wind
In the dance
In my mouth
On my lips

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Filipino Thought Train

Burat, Burat, Burat...

Bat ganon, kung kaylan mo gusto mag sulat, walang lalabas sa utak mo. Nakakainis! Pakiramdam mo ba and tanga mo. Bakit ba ang hirap maghukay sa loob ng iyong utak para sa isang munting patak ng inspirasyon. Para bang ginto na pilit mong hinahanap sa pinagmiminahan ng tanso. Wala ka rin naming makukuha sa pagupo lamang kung walang dadating sayo. Maririndi, maaasar, malulungkot ka lang. kulang nalang iuntog mo ulo mo sa pader hanging may lumabas, kahit dugo lang, basta merong lumabas. Nag kukulang ba ako sa aking karanasan para hindi makahawak ng isang pagiisip na may katuturan? Magagamit ko pa ba ang aking pinag aaralan para maitugtog ko ang lapis sa aking papel? Ano pa ba ang kaylangan kong alamin sa buhay? May pagkukulang ba ako? Sa aking pagiisip, sa aking katawan, sa aking kaluluwa? Di ko mahanap ang mga sasabihin, ngunit ang dami ko naman gusting ilabas. Ano o ano pa ang gagawin? Gusto kong sumigaw ng malakas. Kaso hindi baka igapos ako ng mga tao ditto. Ano ba tong ginagawa ko? Nag sasalita sa utak kong nagmimistulang marupok sa ligid ng mga taong nag mumukhang may pinatutunguan sa buhay. Kahit pa ang mga taong dumadaan lamang ay may ginigising tuwing umaga. At ako? Ano ginagawa ko? Eto salita lang ng salita sa ulo kong unti unting sumasakit. Nag sasangayon sa sarili kong kadumalan.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Test Post

Can't see the entries. Testing. Can you see this?

Monday, July 02, 2007

When You Do Random Things...

anything can become masturbatory...

it's true, dont ask me how, it just is. happy, happy, joy, joy!


Green Spring Trees

Noon on a Wednesday, sun up and high
I wait to cross the street, turn green, damn light
Beside me, a green spring tree,
From down the window to the street
Familiar darlings in happy dispositions
Under a green spring tree
From across the street, sitting on my blue box
The monkeys seem to do what they feel
On the green spring tree
Across the room sitting at the corner
A man trying to get a little oblivion
And outside, a green spring tree
And in the perfect building across the river
They have theirs wrapped in a box
Surrounded by green spring trees
Asleep on the bed of my dreams
The mirror, foggier it seems
No reflection of my green spring tree
Get me and myself from me
Then again my bones are deep in my skin
I want a green spring tree
And how does the beginning fall to the end
But sleep until tomorrow, the same again
Find my green spring tree